*sigh*

Man I am just brain dead all of a sudden! I hate feeling so brain dead but you know I worked my butt off this week. I just hope it will be good enough for my advisor. Oh well if not at least I know I am doing my best. :)

Life has been great recently though! I have been following my own path, doing things that I want to do and not worrying about what others want from me or what they want me to do. I am just really excited I am finally sticking up for myself and getting my work done and doing the things that are best for me. hehehehe. I have been going out, meeting new people, talking to new friends, its been lots of fun! Finally! I love new friends.

Ok I am tired I'm not gonna bother with this any more for the night :P It is beddy bye time ;)

And so it begins... AGAIN!

Due to the fact that my first blog I just don't want to deal with any more... cause I am not with him any more. And honestly... for the first time in a long long time... I am not looking for a relationship. Granted... I joined POF again... but for now its my way of getting to know people while I do nothing at my apartment but work on my thesis and it gives me opportunities to go out and explore D.C. with other people. I love everyone at school but at the same time you get to talk to some extraordinary people when you open up the possibilities to meeting people online. Also I love science... but I don't want to be with a scientist hahaha it would just get really annoying hahahaha.

So far... I have only had 2 meetings (I don't call them dates unless its a second time I think cause that means there is interest) that I think are good. Others though were just either weird or awkward hahaha. I mean it happens. The most important thing is I don't want any pressure from any one and as soon as they start pressuring or start getting snipy with me for going to hang out with other guys... get the boot. Too controlling for me and I have had that WAY too much in the past couple years so its time I meet someone who gives me the leash that I give them. My philosophy... the more leash you give me the more likely I am to come back... the more you choke me and keep me on a tight leash... I'm going to want to escape for breathing room.

Recently though I've been talking to a few people who have piqued my interest. I'm getting really excited cause i like it when people don't pressure me to friend them on fb... give out my number... meet up asap... it just gets old. :-\ I want to see that someone is interested in getting to know me and then meeting up. Yeah physicality is a huge deal but at the same time... its important to get to know the person under the skin :)

Its getting to be warm outside so I can't wait to start going outside more and more. In other news... literature review is going well... FINALLY :D I have people on my side so all is good! Can't wait to start work this summer ;)