A Pointless and Stupid Rant

Hello everybody! Well here I am, close to having started my experiment... however the analyses came back and my diets I made look like shit and we have no idea what the issue is but it appears that i made an error and I can assure you I did no such thing on this big of a project. Well any who it is looking like my experiment will be held back. Then I am running this procedure today and I get poked and prodded at for like absolutely nothing! I think the way this lab works abslutely stinks and it is so wrong to work it this way! Everything is rushed and everything is pressure and blah blah blah. I think that makes it way way worse than it is! I mean I tend to make more mistakes the more worried I am about making a mistake whereas if i had a chillax lab I think I'd have a pretty decent outcome!

Well in other news I have all but given up on men for the most part. My new guy friend is really the only person I have met online that is a great guy and we both have some feelings towards each other. Everyone else either 1) I'm not interested in 2) they aren't interested in me or 3) they only want sex. :-\ Ugh I just wish that I could find one decent guy who both of us had mutual feelings for each other and call it a day. But I've been wondering if I'm even cut out for dating any more. This feeling of hopelessness has got to the point where I don't even know if I even believe in love any more. Like at all. It has been THAT bad. I can't remember that feeling of happiness or butterflies any more and I'm wondering if it was all in my head or if I just have got to the point where its just not going to happen any more.

Sorry to be a debbie downer... its just been a rough week and a rough single life it feels like.

But in happy news... Lady Gaga performance is this weekend! And then I move up to Beyonce class!!! :D