Just a tad late...

I decided what would be really fun and kind of self-empowering would be to write 23 things for each year I have been here that I learned on each day til I turn 23. That being said i now need to put down the 15 for up to today. The goal is to come to terms with some things as well as try to make plans to fix any bad things.

1. I am thrifty. Not a bad thing although I could definitely stand to learn to extreme coupon.
2. I am lazy and a procrastinator... this entry is a great example! :P Hahahaha. I need to learn to be more on top of things and not leave it to the last minute... otherwise I will stress myself out to no end hahaha.
3. I am too nice to people. I don't tell people like it is all the time, I have been getting better at it and tried to not lie even if it'd hurt their feelings... but at least I don't gossip behind their backs! :)
4. I care too much about what people think of me. This I have worked on ALOT after being single for a few months now. I have slowly begun teaching myself people won't always like me and I gotta get over it and adopt the attitude its their loss or its no skin off my nose cause I don't want any one around me who doesn't like me. Hahaha I mean makes sense... right?
5. I am addicted to caffeine. I drink WAY too much soda and it also has to do with the carbonation. I know it makes me bloated and I know what happens when I stop but its just so damn good to drink! I need to get back onto water... so to encourage that... I bought a costco membership so I can go and buy the cases of water to encourage water drinking. I need to do it... if not for appearance for my health.
6. I love video games. They are such a great relaxing way for me to just be someone else. I love that they make me frustrated and give me something to do. I love being an assassin, a zombie killer, a pinata, etc etc. Its so much fun to let your imagination run rampant and blow off some steam in the process.
7. I love asking why and how. I'm a naturally curious girl. If something is left unknown I puzzle over it for hours and hours until I either exhaust myself or find the answer. I think this is why I make a great scientist personally :). This goes for any puzzles too... I love trying to figure out things and brain teasers and the like.
8. I am a klutz. I mean really who trips on a bump in carpet while skipping and comes out with a concussion and crutches for a week?
9. I am graceful. When I'm concentrating like when doing anything musically related I can be really graceful when I'm on task... or so I have been told.
10. I am too careful/perfectionist. I am a natural worry wart and I try to do everything to a T even if it takes a long time. Recently though I have been trying to lessen the pressure on myself. So what if I don't do the assays perfect? At least I was pretty damn close! I also worry that the worst will always happen but I like to believe that means I prepare for everything.
11. I am fortunate. I really am. I have a lot going for me, and sometimes its hard to see but once you befriend those less fortunate than you... its a real eye opener I think. I am very thankful to have all the things that I do have.
12. I am open-minded. I think that everyone has a good arguement on most issues. There are select issues where I think the opposition is just plain wrong but with good arguements I can accept and agree with on certain degrees. Everyone has their own beliefs... we are only human... it'd be boring as hell if we all had the same beliefs.
13. I am intelligent. This one has always been a struggle for me because my grades are never the best but thats just me... grades don't grade my intelligence level. If I wasn't intelligent then I wouldn't be where I am now and doing the things I'm doing and excelling in this super difficult program.
14. Everything happened in my life for a reason and it was a learning experience. "Good judgement comes from experience, even though experience can come from bad judgement." A lot of stuff has happened to me in my past, and rather than dwell on that stuff I learned from the situations and use what I learned to assess situations and such.
15. I have a connection to animals. I really do. I almost feel like I can talk to them. Crazy? Maybe I am but I really feel like sometimes they can tell me what is going on. I love interacting with animals even if they are mean. Dumble is a great example... rather than do horrible things to me after he bit me and blame him I blamed myself for not reading his warning signs and I helped him through his aggression and now he is fine.

So that is my list caught up so far! I have the list in front of me and I want to write it now but well I don't wanna ruin it hahaha.

So I'm supposed to go to the cabin this weekend but I'm not sure if I can or not because of this project. We got the numbers and stuff all done but now we gotta formulate diets :-\ urgh not looking forward to that. I really hope I can go to the cabin this weekend I really miss it and my dad and sister.

In other news... I told D how I'm feeling and I'm glad I did. We will just have to see what comes out of this friendship :).