Number 17

17. I don't need a man, but I do want to share my life with someone.

I don't think that I need a man but life is meant for two people to be together and share their experiences with each other, get through the tough times, get married, and have children. I have only recently realized "I don't need a man but I want one". I used to be so determined to date the next guy that came my way with a half decent personality and I'd over look the flaws and try to see the good in them. Well we all know how THAT goes hahaha. I am so happy for couples that I know who are getting married, engaged, etc some are even having kids and I think that is so crazy and well to be bluntly honest I'm super jealous (granted I can DEFINITELY wait til I've been married for a few years before babies come into the picture haha). I keep hoping that maybe someone will show their true feelings for me and treat me well.

D has dropped off the planet and well... I dunno if he is hurt or if he is just going to be a boy and not text me back ever again *shakes head* honestly though... whatever... if he wants to be immature and not text me ever again and hope i'll just disappear...thats his own damn problem not mine. I'm not some person who is going to get upset if you tell me your not interested... I can handle it trust me even if I like you. Because I'm not the begging type for a relationship... well at least not any more that is. I'm not going to beg someone for a relationship with me if they don't want it. If a marriage were to ever work out... it has to be wanted by both parties for sure not just one hahaha.

Come on Prince Charming... if you can come out of the woodworks and admit your feelings for me and I to you... I will be the happiest girl in the world :D.

Ok readers well I'm going to disappear until Sunday night! I get to go to the cabin this weekend for fathers day with my wonderful dad and sister :). Haven't been in sooooo long so I'm really excited. I think I'm going to take all my bug hunting equipment and try to get some cool stuff... oh and take my camera as well. :) I guess I should get packing.

Advisor is still in the hospital, please send prayers and positive energy her way!